tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55835252012-02-16T11:47:47.585-08:00An Apt Folly<b>apt</b> (adj.)- Exactly suitable; appropriate.
<b>fol·ly</b> (n.)
1. A lack of good sense, understanding, or foresight.
2. a. An act or instance of foolishness.
b. A costly undertaking having an absurd or ruinous outcome.
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Here be thoughts, queries, rants, poems, and other justifiable nonsense.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.comBlogger1151100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-90554470800372687762009-05-21T11:32:00.000-07:002009-05-21T11:34:16.410-07:00Woah. Haven't posted in a loooong time. Too many damn blogs. Gotta fix that.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-29550041050785631762007-10-24T16:37:00.001-07:002007-10-24T16:38:21.398-07:00 :)Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-68225863696096516982007-07-24T11:32:00.000-07:002007-10-24T16:54:21.391-07:00Everyone has certain events in life that may be responsible for making them the people they are. here are some of mine:TMINeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-18987040227037704502007-07-20T15:32:00.000-07:002007-07-20T16:07:22.227-07:00I am, as I've said before, spread too thin on the 'Net. Too many fucking blogs. I should consolidate. I have...lets see...this one, a live journal, one at WordPress. I can't possibly have that much to say. I'm also on Buzznet, I think I started a Google webpage that I don't use, then there's the MySpace that I'm on most often, I started a Trig.com page and there's my GodsGirls member account Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-34229939503159779932007-03-08T16:08:00.000-08:002007-03-08T16:09:11.368-08:00Well, it's been a while, yes? Just thought I'd stop in and make a fresh change. :)Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1145558508591100292006-04-20T11:33:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:06.520-08:00Great googely moogely! I've been away too long! I don't know what happened there. How has everyone been? It's been like a roller coaster over here. The holidays, some health issues, my dad's 80th birthday, a feature film project coming this summer/fall. Blah, blah, blah. I don't know, maybe life just doesn't always seem interesting. Or at least to anyone else. why do we all write these Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1131733431422027572005-11-11T10:23:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:06.395-08:00Something tweaky going on with the blog....Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1125614326223100882005-09-01T14:57:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:06.267-08:00Well, I think alzheimer's must be kicking in because I've forgotten this weekend is Labor Day weekend. And I've forgotten every day this week. However, that does make for a pleasant surprise each day. Then next week I'll be off to Philadelphia for not one, but two, weddings. So, the absinthe was quite good. So much so, that I'll be getting more soon. :)Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1123548021861321062005-08-08T17:31:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:06.156-08:00This weekend: Vegas and absinthe.Yes, this is a strange combination, but it does offer many interesting possibilities. I shall elaborate upon my return, to regale all with my tales of La Fee Verte in the City of Sin. :)Cheers,NeilNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1120779093356048882005-07-07T16:30:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:06.020-08:00"Bunny slippers remind me of who I am. You can't get a swelled head if you wear bunny slippers. You can't lose your sense of perspective and start acting like a star or a rich lady if you keep on wearing bunny slippers. Besides, bunny slippers give me confidence because they're so jaunty. They make a statement; they say, 'Nothing the world does to me can ever get me so far down that I can't be Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1120185028961528492005-06-30T19:25:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:05.910-08:00Car found. It's in the shop now. It looks ok, to be honest. They even left my CD's in the back . Looks like there is almost no damage. Go figure. We'll see about the engine but things look pretty good.Seems like good karma on my part. No pun intended. Well, maybe a little.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1118490764679813352005-06-11T04:49:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:05.791-08:00Last Saturday night my car was stolen. It's still missing. Find out from the insurance company how much they'll offer me next week.My optimism is crippled.So much for a happy birthday.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1116271241301214222005-05-16T11:45:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:05.682-08:00"There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness." ~ Friedrich NietzscheNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1114621870161953202005-04-27T10:03:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:05.556-08:00It has become increasingly clear that as of late I have not been getting enough sleep or eating properly. I am such a night person, I have been out of whack because of it. Not enough sleep...I need a nap.I don't want to feel older than what my birthday will be in June. I've always felt like a big kid but for the first time, I feel my age. Maybe I need my chi cleansed. And then a way to keep it Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1111798873361002982005-03-25T16:57:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:05.458-08:00Happy Friday! Here's another strange link I came across:http://www.dragonwings.net/BosomBuddies.htmI can see how this could be fun, or playful in spirit, but somehow I find these items a little unsettling. There's just something about them...oh well.Have a great weekend!Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1111618602879192772005-03-23T14:54:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:05.344-08:00Holy crap, where does the time go? It's been, like, a month since my last entry. My apologies.I'm stopping in to let you all in on another blog I was directed to: http://stuckinrehabwithpatobrien.blogspot.com/It's really fuckin' funny. Go check it out and have a giggle.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1108983098250942622005-02-21T02:47:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:05.219-08:00"There he goes. One of God's own prototypes. Some kind of high powered mutant never even considered for mass production. Too weird to live, and too rare to die."------"Let's get down to brass tacks. How much for the ape?"See ya Hunter. Wished you stuck around a little longer, but I hope you are where you want to be.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1108073393577427932005-02-10T13:42:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:05.106-08:00Generally, I have a great distaste for commercials. They certainly don't affect my decision to buy their products or services. At the most, they occasionally give me a chuckle. But every once in a while, a commercial comes along with just the right combination of funny and creepy.
Right now, the commercials that have managed to garner my attention are those for the Van Kamps frozen fish campaignNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1107911791524474952005-02-08T17:09:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.987-08:00Well, we all know how the Eagles did; they put up a good fight and could've won if not for the freakin' interceptions. Sigh...now I'm left with the cliche' , "There's always next year." Ack.
Saw "The Aviator". It was very good, but I can't help but feel like it was either too long by about 40 mintues, or not quite in depth enough in a few spots. Strange. DiCaprio was quite good, but Cate Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1107564550107870352005-02-04T16:45:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.882-08:00Oh, it's Superbowl weekend, people. I don't normally care that much, but the Philadelphia Eagles are in it and it's been 24 years. I haven't had a reason to scream and yell and root for a team in the Superbowl 'til now. This is gonna be big. Philly friends together, cheese steaks and hoagies from South Street, and beer. Good times.
Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Go Eagles!
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1106962806486015222005-01-28T17:36:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.751-08:00Greets,
Busy weekend ahead. I've a play to attend co-written by Penn Jillette and starring Dean Cameron, then Jumbo's Clown Room, a friend's birthday shin-dig, maybe even a little work this weekend (Ha!, right. Maybe next weekend). Something on Sunday, but I can't remember... Oh well, I'll think of it eventually.
Hope everyone is well and has a funtastic weekend.
Cheers!
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1106619389563899222005-01-24T18:15:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.649-08:00Finally, after 24 years, the Philadelphia Eagles are going to the Superbowl.
Go Birds!
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1105663260559185172005-01-13T16:28:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.508-08:00Salutations, bloggers and blog readers.
A bright spot in my psychological dyspepsia begins tonight. I took a day off tomorrow from work because some good friends from Philly (Rob and Rose) are in town for a visit. They've come in for another friends' baby shower. And I have Monday off so I'm going to bask in a four day weekend. I need it. It'll be good to see some friends from back east.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1105384651302290402005-01-10T11:05:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.406-08:00Look what the cat dragged in.
Hope you all had a good holiday season. I spent the week between Christmas and New Years, and some, rather sick. Yay, me. I've been sick at New Years around four of the past five years. I must say, this is hardly fair. Miserable and unproductive for over a week. It was my vacation, fer cryin' out loud. Stupid germs.
I wish there was more to report, but Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1103584418323455532004-12-20T14:47:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.281-08:00With Christmas upon us, I would like to wish everyone a happy holiday. Where ever you're going, whoever you spend it with, be happy, love and know that you are loved. If anyone isn't getting enough love, I'm dishing out extra helpings here.
Hugs and Kisses,
Neil
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1103250297291561812004-12-16T18:23:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.186-08:00Sing it with me, people:
Christmas time is here
Happiness and cheer
Fun for all that children call
Their favorite time of the year
Snowflakes in the air
Carols everywhere
Olden times and ancient rhymes
Of love and dreams to share
Sleigh bells in the air
Beauty everywhere
Yuletide by the fireside
And joyful memories there
Christmas time is here
We'll be drawing near
Oh, that we could always Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1102555769739201142004-12-08T17:28:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:04.066-08:00Hey, would someone please send me some Holiday spirit? I'm just not finding it this year.
Thanks.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1102555215268903572004-12-08T17:12:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:03.972-08:00"True love is not finding the perfect person, it's learning to view the imperfect person perfectly.
When you look beyond the imperfections, you begin to see what makes people beautiful.
Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person we will know how to be grateful for that gift of LOVE
Love is when you take away the feelingNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1101325914656303622004-11-24T11:50:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:03.795-08:00Giving thanks for:
Meeting the most amazing woman I've ever known. She is everything I ever imagined I'd want in life. She helped me believe in the magical idea of the "soulmate".
The support of great friends. They've been there for me during my recent struggle with this dubious notion of the existence of a "soulmate".
Laughter. It really is the best medicine.
Alcohol. Sometimes it Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1101248149197209492004-11-23T13:15:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:03.645-08:00"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated."
~A. LaMartine
Yeah, it's done. Any hope I may have held onto is let go. I'm still trying to sort it out. I'm so tired of feeling this. I just can't shake the part of me that feels this profound remorse over losing something that could have been incredible; the kind of happiness that you look for with another person.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1100894977522864792004-11-19T13:04:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:03.460-08:00Look what I just read:
My Daily Gemini Forecast-
Quickie: Sometimes the choices are overwhelming. A long walk will help clear your mind.
Overview: No matter how deprived you think you are, take a step backward and really look at the situation. You'll realize you actually have it all. Now pull in that lower lip and say thank you to the universe.
Daily extended:
Intellectual communion Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1100890160413950062004-11-19T10:13:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:03.308-08:00The past few weeks, I've not been myself. At least not my usual self. I'm the guy that smiles a lot, laughs a lot, and somehow manages to make others do the same. But I haven't really been that person in a while. I've been looking inward so much that I've forgotten about the person I like to be.
Who knows why things happen in life. We have so much control of some things, none over other things. Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1100564069179290962004-11-15T16:11:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:03.176-08:00Amazing how life spins on the head of a pin. I don't think I'm the same person I was about 4 weeks ago. I wonder if I'll ever see that guy again?
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1100303981295005962004-11-12T14:49:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:02.954-08:00Gemini & Cancer
"...Gemini is an Air Sign and Cancer is a Water Sign. If these two Signs can work together they can be a great team; after all, the best decisions are made by incorporating the emotions and the intellect. The trouble for these two lies in learning to cooperate. They come from such opposite points of view that at times it can seem as if they simply have nothing in common. Deep, Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1100196306353862862004-11-11T09:58:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:02.803-08:00Thanks to my friend Kelly for talking to me. She's awesome. She makes me laugh and makes me make her laugh. What else is there? :)
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1100125719727334432004-11-10T13:46:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:02.626-08:00Some days are like little relapses. I feel kinda sad today. Can't find forward motion. Just one of those bumps in the road, I guess. It'll pass.
But should it just pass? I can't just ignore feelings, nor beat them down into submission. They don't go away so easily. They are persistant.
As they say, nothing worth anything is easy.
And this one is priceless.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099963973863584242004-11-08T17:15:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:02.458-08:00Sending positive thoughts to faraway places to those who need it. I've been good at this before, so there's no reason it won't work again.
Enough people with enough positive thinking; who knows what we can do?
Healing through Peace and Love. :)
-Me
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099937394148214442004-11-08T10:08:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:02.331-08:00Ok, stop whatever you'e doing and just go see "The Incredibles" right now. Go on. You'll be happy you did.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099548764154389002004-11-03T22:10:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:02.196-08:00Ack. Another four years of George W. Bush. Who knows what mess he'll make next. Maybe it's time to move to Canada, or maybe overseas...yeah...
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099422037792162962004-11-02T10:59:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:01.866-08:00"We are an impossibility in an impossible universe." --Ray Bradbury
"We are cups, constantly and quietly being filled. The trick is, knowing how to tip ourselves over and let the beautiful stuff out."
--Ray Bradbury
This man is a genius. If you ever get the chance to hear him speak, you should do it.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099358405594845572004-11-01T17:17:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:01.713-08:00"The worst thing you can do for love is deny it; so when you find that special someone, don't let anyone to anything get in your way"
~Anonymous
"I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out."
~ Elizabeth Barrett Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099331997734033142004-11-01T09:58:00.000-08:002006-11-15T16:05:01.582-08:00She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that 's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099095182002374572004-10-29T17:05:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:01.475-08:00Halloween weekend.
I have a party to go to tomorrow so I'm sure there will be photos of the festivities. There will be many folks I haven't seen in a while, except poor Codos, who's in Chicago. We'll have to have fun in his behalf. And fun is always good. Always.
Have some yourselves, folks, and have a good scare, too. :)
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1099011101025694892004-10-28T17:46:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:01.320-08:00The stars and the planets tell us more than some of you might think. Me included.
"The earth laughs in flowers." ~ E. E. Cummings
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098995083029018992004-10-28T10:52:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:01.214-08:00"You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and you will not find that person anywhere."
~Anonymous
"The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved-- loved for ourselves, or rather, in spite of ourselves."
~ Victor Hugo
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098897096772911462004-10-27T10:11:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:01.072-08:00"A man should never be ashamed to own that he has been in the wrong, which is but saying... that he is wiser today than yesterday."
~ Jonathan Swift
Let me embrace these words, and plant them deep within me so that they might grow.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098824382459234682004-10-26T13:23:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:00.879-08:00I look back on the week and I notice something. I haven't actually looked in the mirror. Well, I've looked, but I haven't really seen anything. Just some guy shaving, walking past, opening the cabinet above the sink...but I haven't actually SEEN him.
I've felt things that seemed to be necessary to him. I've even tried to label those things a "process". I've taken photos of him and only now Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098696868486641012004-10-25T02:33:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:00.581-08:00So much difference a day makes...
----
What a difference a day made
Twenty-four little hours
Brought the sun and the flowers
Where there used to be rain
My yesterday was blue, dear
Today I'm part of you, dear
My lonely nights are through, dear
Since you said you were mine
What a difference a day makes
There's a rainbow before me
Skies above can't be stormy
Since that moment of bliss, that Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098617831937643042004-10-24T04:18:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:00.467-08:00I had a small revelation this evening: I absolutely love the the smell of grilled cheese sandwiches being made. It's a comfort zone smell. It fills me with an incredible sense of calm.
So, my friend Codos, who's link you'll find to the right, threw a party tonight with his roomate, another friend of mine, Alex. It was a good time and many friends of mine were there I needed to see. NothingNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098526301441120422004-10-23T02:26:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:00.323-08:00My, what a draining week it's been.
I've never felt so much emotion in my entire life. I've been to some very dark places in these few days. I've seen what the mind can allow itself to do when not tempered with enough reason.
In the past two months I found myself in a state of immense bliss. I found love. A love unlike any I have previously known.
Exactly two months to the day of finding it, I Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098205023760454182004-10-19T09:52:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:05:00.150-08:00Did my feelings cause it to happen?
Or did I feel a premonition of what was to happen?
Either way, my heart...
...aches.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098167021700004262004-10-18T23:19:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:59.853-08:00Faith. Have faith.
That's what I tell myself.
Just love. Just love.
Without condition, with conviction.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098138418948514932004-10-18T15:00:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:59.678-08:00
Couple more from the vaults:
It was dark and damp,
like a jungle at dusk just after a rain.
I was running from something,
with fear as my guide.
It was hard to make any headway
with so much brush in the way.
Soon I came upon a thin patch
and before me was
a cave of stone, black as coal.
Big enough to drive Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098122053366267872004-10-18T10:47:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:59.476-08:00It's getting dark in here.
How little light can we stand?
How long can we last in the absence of light?
Where will the line be drawn?
Am I going to find out?
I've turned out the lights.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098092553075230232004-10-18T02:15:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:59.342-08:00Oh, my furrowed brow...
...full of shadow and doubt.
Why? La Belle et la Bete?
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1098089715231004992004-10-18T01:45:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:59.221-08:00Some random things from the vault:
My fists are soiled with the blood of my subconscious.
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Scent of stormier seas,
strange incense of Nature's spirit
confessing it's dark thoughts.
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Desire clouds truth
and love becomes lies.
This bloodshed is my will;
I murder in chortling contentment.
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Sometimes I get a lump in my throat
but I don't know why.
I sit in the corner of my Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1097618861464611492004-10-12T15:00:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:59.036-08:00Sometimes I really feel like I've let something go. My creativity. Where is that edge? Ack. I hate to use that word, "edge". It's so over-used. Sigh. What have I done? Or more to the point, it's what I haven't done that causes my sudden anxiety. I've let a part of me slumber too long. Time to gather the troops. Time to start the mission.
There's something to work for now.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1097538302751730702004-10-11T16:21:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:58.901-08:00Hi there, folks! Long time no blog. I was away for a week on the east coast at a friend's wedding. I was in the wedding party, so I figured it would be in poor taste not to attend, not to mention that it would have set off the whole groomsmen/bridesmaid ratio. Brides hate it when that happens.
I was actually honored to be part of the whole shindig, and as it turned out the groomsmen got really Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1096275534031597302004-09-27T01:57:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:58.774-08:00G! :)
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1096275177386998652004-09-27T01:49:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:58.635-08:00Ok kids, this past Saturday night I went to the Hollywood Hellhouse. It's at the Steve Allen Theater at cfiwest on Hollywood Blvd. Got questions? Click the link and try to see the show. It's awesome. Halleluiah!
http://www.cfiwest.org/theater/hellhouse/index.htm
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1095839929976435702004-09-22T01:58:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:58.358-08:00
Inland Invasion
Yes, I went to the Inland Invasion show here in So. Cal. last Saturday. Lots of great 80's bands like X, Tears For Fears, Devo, Billy Idol, Siouxsie Sioux and some new bands like Muse and The Killers. All were great, but who knew Billy Idol would rock the house? Yeah, you read that right. Billy Idol was awesome. I admit it.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1095120489884468402004-09-13T16:55:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:58.243-08:00Ok, this is just a reminder that this coming Sunday, the 19th of September, is Talk Like A Pirate Day. That's right, you heard me. There's a link to the right you should check out. Or for you lazy clickers, go here: http://www.talklikeapirate.com/.
That will keep you well informed. So this Sunday, while we're all watching football, or watching your men watching football, make sure you talk Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1094943681463704322004-09-11T15:48:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:58.076-08:00Hello, bloogers and blog readers.
Tomorrow is Sunday and that means football. Eagles first Season game. Also the Browns first game. Gonna be a big day of guy stuff: football, beer and friends. Should be lots of cheering (we hope) and yelling.
I'm saddened by the server malfunction of buzznet. They assure us if we're patient our pics will be back up, no problem. It's been a week. I'm losing Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1094255510396705562004-09-03T16:28:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.962-08:00Happy Labor Day weekend, everyone!
Summer's last gasp. Time to say our final goodbyes to the sun, trips to the beach, camping, or those fun road trips. Well, except for those of us in Southern California. We do that stuff all year round. Hey, don't get mad at me! I'm not the one that made you move to a cold, snowy place. ;)
So everybody find a barbeque and have a drink with friends Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1093860903016517842004-08-30T02:59:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.846-08:00Ok, I should've been in bed a couple hours ago, but I've been busy. My mind is whirling. Something...someone...I'm...
Ok, what are your thoughts on Fate? I used to be a fairly solid believer in "I am the master of my soul, I am the captain of my fate." But every so often, something happpens that makes me think that maybe, sometimes, there are three women in some mythical place carefully weaving Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1093644998048763142004-08-27T15:13:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.706-08:00Ok, the Eagles lost. I know, it's only pre-season, but it doesn't bode well for the actual season that starts week after next. Let's try to think happy thoughts.
Ok, it's Friday everybody. Time to think festive, or relaxing, which ever is your pleasure. I hope you all get the one you like, or a little of both, which to me is ideal.
Cheers!
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1093565084304485212004-08-26T16:33:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.604-08:00And we approach the end of another week- only one more day. In a similar metaphor, we approach the end of the summer. Labor Day weekend is the weekend after this one. This means a couple things: I will again miss an opportunity to attend Burning Man. I've been wanting to go for years, but working at a University pretty much kills that plan because this is the busiest time of the year for us.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1093047289957538842004-08-20T17:13:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.480-08:00IT'S FRIDAY!! Gotta find a Happy Hour! Woo hoo!
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1092791189221133922004-08-17T18:04:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.354-08:00OK, my friend Mike just sent me this link: http://www.angryalien.com/0804/jawsbunnies.asp . Just go there and laugh. Watch all of the bunny animations because they're all funny. I think I like the Jaws one and the Titanic one best, though.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1092705241208883452004-08-16T17:07:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.188-08:00Well, I had a sucky weekend. I was sick with some gastro-intestinal invader. Not good. I had tickets to go see The Damned at the House of Blues Friday night and I couldn't go. I love lighting $25 on fire. It's FUN! Money is for losers, anyway.
So Saturday night I started feeling a bit more human, but stayed in 'til Sunday morning when I decided to go to the Hollywood Farmer's Market. I'd been Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1092343779878470632004-08-12T13:40:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:57.083-08:00Ok, I'm grumpy today and I have a stomach ache. I don't know why. And it isn't a good way to feel with a three day weekend upon me. Damn it all. Ack.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1092272236179565582004-08-11T17:15:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.957-08:00Here it is, another hump day. It's finally after five and I can relax ...until tomorrow. Our student worker had a melt-down today. He had to go for a walk. Apparently he was found in the back cubicle with the shakes. The constant parade of people got to him; the non-stop customer service rattled him to the point of breakdown.
He was asked to leave for a while; get his head together.
Shit, Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1091875837871261822004-08-07T03:37:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.696-08:00Salutations, bloggers! Strange and random bits of info at the moment. Today, I met two women that have my favorite names. I discovered that one lovely lady that I know from the 'net is named Samantha. One of my favorite names ever. I also met a lovely young booze-shilling gal at a bar by the name of Alexis, another of my favorite names. I can't tell you how fascinating this is to me, as I've Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1091655928774178092004-08-04T13:27:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.600-08:00Some Random Thoughts
Happy Wednesday. Actually, there's nothing happy about it. Things are getting busy and I'm not particularly ready for it. I need another week or two of quiet. And of course, the stupid people have already arrived in full force; people for which my patience is already exceedingly short. And how many bonehead phone calls can you possibly get? Apparently that number has no cap.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1091454724789265632004-08-02T06:38:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.450-08:00Well, this has been a weird weekend. Only because I haven't been able to get myself to sleep at a decent hour. Actually, I haven't been to be this weekend before the sun came up- much like right now. Good thing I have today off work.
I don't know what's up. Something won't let me go to sleep. I think I'll just stay up today; no sense in sleeping now. I don't want to sleep all day and then not go Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1091364065134656582004-08-01T04:44:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.348-08:00Well, another late night. I had some pics to downlaod so here I am. Just had a night at Jumbo's Clown Room. Hadn't been there for a while, so it was time. I always have fun there, it truely is the happiest place on earth. :)
Jumbo's is technically in the 'strip club' catagory, but it's really just a little neighborhood Hollywood bar with a stage on the right side. There's no cover (yet) Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1091269566476281802004-07-31T03:17:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.243-08:00 It's cold.
The dark wouldn't be so bad if I could see what's crawling over my feet.
Then again, maybe not.
Such a small place, hard to move.
The sides are rocky, but covered in a slippery moistness.
There's no grip.
Constant drip, drip, drip, on my head and shoulders.
How long?
How long since I was in the sliver of light so Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090951344963340362004-07-27T11:02:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:56.106-08:00Says all I really need it to say. If I remember where I found this, I'll let you all know. Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090864530977157142004-07-26T10:32:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.973-08:00It is a hard-fought battle in a war waged against ignorance and stupidity. I work at a major university in California and I have to say that I never realized the magnitude of the ignorance problem in this country. I've been here a number of years now, and each year a new group of people cause my jaw to hang slack in amazement at the lack of common sense synapses firing in the minds of the greatNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090837744216490202004-07-26T03:23:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.842-08:00I was looking for a photoblog, and Buzznet seemed to be the logical choice. Seems to be the popular one, too. I'll look into Flickr again down the road. They seemed to have some nice features, but it's seems to still be in the beta stage. Time will tell.
For now, it's Buzznet, and more pics will be forthcoming. Until I get a digital camera or a new scanner, you will probably see a fair Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090759169449391252004-07-25T05:11:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.721-08:00That girl; she has a way with words. Sometimes I really wonder why I write at all. Could I have anything of useful to say? Is it all just for me? Yeah, I suppose it is, in the end. Anything creative is in many ways just self-gratification. I suppose if anyone else gets something from it, only then does it serve a more relevant purpose. It's up to the reader/viewer to determine its' value.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090628593821918032004-07-23T17:19:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.582-08:00A new name, a new address. I think it's appropriate. Or shall I say, 'apt'. ;)
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090573247088450462004-07-23T02:00:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.422-08:00
The Sunset/Vine structure. Again taken with the cell phone camera, hence the grainy quality. Yes, that's a Border's Books & Music at the bottom. This is looking North/Northwest on Vine at Sunset- take a right and go a few blocks and I'm home.
Ok, this pic thing is getting out of hand. It's time for me to pick a photoblog to add to this site. I just haven't decided which one yet. Real soon.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090524473248388422004-07-22T12:26:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.286-08:00Today is my friend Rob Kurtz's birthday. Three cheers! He's a hell of a guy.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090400428668534722004-07-21T01:56:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:55.158-08:00Went to see a movie tonight. Don't ask questions, just go see "Napoleon Dynamite". Ok, if you're gonna ask questions, go here: http://www2.foxsearchlight.com/napoleondynamite/. But I'm tellin' ya, it's SO funny. It's always the little indie films that give integrity to the film industry.
Talk to ya later.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090370370307572392004-07-20T17:39:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.999-08:00Hey, look! A post during normal waking hours. How novel! I'm awful sleepy. Why must I love the night so? Why must it beckon me like a two dollar whore to a sailor? I suppose the real question is, why do I come when it calls? Ah, the great unanswered mysteries of the Universe. Like, why do donuts have holes? Why can't the blue-footed booby land with a modicum of grace?
"The blue-footed booby gotNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090230915915627102004-07-19T02:24:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.755-08:00Another late night. So what else is new? I was working today with the IT department at work to make some extra money because, hey, I like extra money. And 12 hours (of installing new computers) will get me a good chunk. I need it. However, I didn't get home until 1:30 am. This is bad only because I had to call to see if I had to go in tomorrow for the dreaded... JURY DUTY!
This is the Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090058829350385422004-07-17T03:07:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.581-08:00I just took this pic the other night. Yes, with the phone again. It's Amoeba Hollywood, otherwise known as my Mecca, my Utopia, my largest investment property. ;) So much music, so little time. Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090058602877766102004-07-17T03:03:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.458-08:00Well, since I've been so prolific here lately, I figured there's no reason to slow down now. This is a picture of the Jersey shore; Wildwood to be exact. I was visiting a few weeks ago and recently got a new cell phone with a camera and, well, you can guess the rest. Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1090057905939423912004-07-17T02:27:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.329-08:00It's a pattern I just can't break. I come home from a friends' place; a fellow blogger, Codos- http://blowedupgood.blogspot.com/, it's late and I'm tired, but here I am anyway, sitting in the glow of my 'puter screen, typing away. But earlier I saw something that disturbed me.
As I sometimes do, I turned on the telly when I got home. I was flipping channels again, when I landed on one of Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089997749365447952004-07-16T09:51:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.219-08:00Ok, somebody must've put something in my drink.
That last entry is like a dream. I was so delirious from lack of sleep. Burning that candle at both ends this week working on stuff for that play. Then went out for a couple beers without any dinner. Gee, amazing I didn't see that crash coming.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089969334632658042004-07-16T02:06:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:54.091-08:00A little buzzed, extremely tired, and quite frankly, only a mere 20 bucks in my pocket. This is a sad moment, indeed. Sad words are easy; it's the happy ones that are hard to find.
And yet....Ooooo, new fonts. New sizes! Color! Bold color! The possibilites are many.
It's the little things that can make a mood. Tomorrow is Friday. I'm sure there's a deity to thank somewhere, I'm just tooNeilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089879587092659592004-07-15T01:19:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.963-08:00I'm a member of an online poetry forum called Liquid Poetry. Sometimes we are given challenges to write things as an exercise. Recently we were given this painting and told to write whatever it inspired. Here is what I wrote:
She knew the sun had come up only by the hour on the clock.
The blanket of grey merely turned a lighter shade as
daylight wrestled it's way into being.
She hardly Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089879228369967362004-07-15T01:08:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.863-08:00Ok, now that I have the pic thing figured out, I thought I'd post a few more poems to catch up.
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Night Of The Burrows
Lying in the middle of a desert road,
or on the hood of the car, feeling comfortably numb,
knowing we'll never convince anyone
we followed burrows in the dark,
we were content with our adventure.
No, they didn't talk, but that doesn't mean
they didn't speak to us.
Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-108987821775505392004-07-15T00:56:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:51.125-08:00I was back in Philly for a friend's wedding a couple weeks ago and I saw something I haven't seen in years: storm clouds! I really miss thunderstorms living in L.A.. Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089836609396365342004-07-14T13:23:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.753-08:00Here is a picture of me when I was five. Sure, it's big, but it's a nice jacket and I knew I'd grow into it eventually.
Ok, clearly I've gotten the hang of the use of images here. So maybe we'll see some more on occasion. Some are sure to embarrass, both me and the viewer, with any luck, so check back before too long.Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089836412262728862004-07-14T13:20:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.635-08:00If I were a South Park character...this is disturbingly accurate. Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089794375876842092004-07-14T01:09:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.529-08:00Ok, I have to come clean. I am a child of the 70's TV generation. And I admit to still watching TV. It's in my blood. Ok, it's not the worst thing(or is it...?), but one has to admit, TV just ain't what it used to be. One more reality TV show about some kids finding a woman to marry their dad for love or money during the amazing race with big brother and I'm going to be in a clocktower with Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1089765121148410592004-07-13T17:16:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.383-08:00Greetings, bloggers! I've revamped this thing and it's much more presentable. I'm thinking of doing the image hosting as well, but in time. I need to get more pics together. This blog thing is tough to keep up with, as I don't always have time to sit down and update it.
Haven't written too much in a while. I worked on a short film written and directed by a friend of mine. That was in early Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5583525.post-1087415504648135712004-06-16T12:46:00.000-07:002006-11-15T16:04:53.283-08:00Well, here it is, another birthday come and gone. I don't feel 39, that's for sure. Yet, here I stand on the precipace of 40, looking into the great chasm of all that means. What does it mean? Maybe nothing. I think it's all relative. I'm a firm believer in "you're only as old as you feel", and I feel like a big, dumb kid. So there you have it; no progress at all in the 'growing up' Neilhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10550982214589915100noreply@blogger.com0