My, what a draining week it's been.

I've never felt so much emotion in my entire life. I've been to some very dark places in these few days. I've seen what the mind can allow itself to do when not tempered with enough reason.

In the past two months I found myself in a state of immense bliss. I found love. A love unlike any I have previously known.
Exactly two months to the day of finding it, I thought I had lost it. And I became consumed by fear, anger, a profound sadness. So very profound. The idea of losing this love seemed too painful. But with some help, some very needed and precious words, and a little time, I think the worst is over.
There are still small crashing waves that threaten to pull me into the undercurrent, but the tide is lower now, and I'm a pretty good swimmer, nonetheless.

This love for her remains. Strong as ever. And she'll always be in my heart. I would like to think that down the road, there will still be a place for both of us together. There is so much of my future I want to share with her. But only she, and time, will tell for sure.
And though I am still sad, for now, I just smile knowing I am capable of a love like that, and that she is the reason for it.

Peace, Love, and Understanding.

Neil